Friday, April 07, 2006
im speechless...i have nth else to sae..all im feelin now..is misery..another news that broke out,hurtin me once again.its a pain i cant handle.a pain that cause me..to break down lyk nvr before.sth that sbreak my heart..wo bu neng shi qu ni=[we broke up todae...sigh...i have 2.4km run todae...its a sad dae...u noe,i care alot for esther..i dunno why..before 2.4km run i was super extremely sad.i cried n smoke 4 sticks..actualli is 5.but one drop down the window..whats happenin?haiss,kuku,katherine n adeline together with me..in my hse all cry la..wendy slept on the bed n cry,kat was sittin at the door n cry,adeline seat n cried in between my drawer n bed there..me?!?!i stood up,facin the window..my tears just flow down...i pretend sae i go into my mum room take money but i open the drawer door,i squat there n cry..i cant hold on to my tears anymore...we rush down to the bedok there..then,i almost cried while runnin...i kept on goin..i wan to persearve...so i run all the wae,think i came in num.7 in class..hopefully can get top 10=[after my run,the first person i saw was liane den esther.well,i was lyk..happi that i saw esther there...after my runs,i immediately go ard to find money...cuz i dunno where i put my bag.so i borrowed from ger...den i ran all the wae to esther hse the provision shop just to buy jellybeans..i ran back..i was pantin lyk mad lahh...than esther came in first..actualli see my sweetie maryann wanna go the finishin line de..but den we both stop at the same time...den i ask her go,but she ask me to go.so i went there..n help esther together with adeline..she is like..so unstable...see her sad arrx....get her chairs drink n etc...then found my bag...receive a call...from xiner...ask me sum stuff lahh...i now listenin to shang hu hai...haiiss!!!felt lyk cryin can./..but i cant...den janelle tel me sae,dun be too soft hearted etc....dunno lorr...hang up on her...janelle called her...sae sum stuff...den she sort of tel janelle sth....jan keep dun wan to tel me...end up i ask her sae...den she sae xiner want to break with me!!!!!!!!!!!i immediately cried lahhs...esther came...took the phone away...n talk to xiner .haiiss...janelle so swit lahh..haiiss...didnt noe she'll care so much for me...thanks thanks..haiss..den,i cried until soooo.haiiss....jiaqian almost cried for me..even sarah..everyne was lyk comfortin me..i was lyk...super sad..gosh,even rachel jiejie n slysly ask me wad happen..al i could do is to cry...cry n cry n cry.even till now...i stood there...not noein what to do..except to sae..'my one month is approchin yet...'haiss.nvmx lahh...al is done le lo..haiiss...nvmx lahh...den....esther ye just walk away from me lyk this..haiiss...now im in tingwen' house..i cried..i feel so.....sad...guess sweetie's sadder=xsweetie,
i noe ure sad..we're exactly sharin the same fate.
but,rmb,its u who lyks her first.
she cant do anything..
*hq is sort of onli_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ her..
(wanna noe the word,ask me)
i will support u..
i noe ure sad n veri down..
but im sorri,i cant be there,
i tried to..but i failed..
there's no need to hide ur feelins frm me.
i noe how u feel...
ive gone thru it before...
but,i willl guide u...i'll help u..
allow me,okie?ilu_*
joanna to maryann.
lyk what i sae,life's in a mess for me..but,ill stil stand strong..no one's gonne see the tears i cry..no one will ever see it ANYMORE.i swear!i need a breakk....from everythingg....just let me be=x
lifes tirin..i cant go on anylonger.. no one knows what im goin thru..its onli me.
haiiss born in this world,
for a false purpose..nothin's the reason at al=x
no onw h\know what im goin thru..
anyone out there???
get me out of this nightmares=[
i cant live on any longer...
i know... i have to seriously let things go.haiiss...
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